Autumn says it all.

Here is number 1.

Background. I have this horriable habbit of starting accounts and never keeping up with them. Thanks to my high school pal Kristen, I decided to do something with this thing. Although it is probably going to be boring. You see... My new life contains days full of; spit up, diapers, feedings, cuddeling, phone calls, FB, caring my my husband near and affar and our dog Brama the rotty.
Before I had my daughter I wanted kids very bad. I always have. In Feburary of 2009 my husband and I went through a miscarriage. Least to say I drowned myself in boo's and partied all summer to move on. Little did I know that was only going to hold me back. I did have fun though. Apparently I am a fun drunk. But I have the feeling that I was a one person party most of the time. I made a lot of friends that summer. I leaned a lot. The lessons that stuck out the most were:
1) Don't do 5 shots of jager back to back. You will litteraly wake up in a sea of green vomit. It's not sexy. Not to mention it causes you to not remember anything about the rest of the bottle you find empty on the table in the morning.
2) Drinking buddies are just that. When the spark is gone they will turn on you like hungry heinas. Never expect anything from drinking buddies.... ( this isn't all of them. But in general. Meshelle is still pretty awesome.)
3) Alcohol just covers the junk. It doesn't do a thing but make the problems worse. Therapy was needed.

And so to therapy and so on then we got pregnant again and here we are. Happy and we have our beautiful little girl! Mind you she didn't replace our lost babies, but she is heaven sent for sure! I thought I knew what love was before her. And now I KNOW what love is because of her. Every time I see my husband hold her, it's as if I am looking at a different man. Her name is so appropriate. Autumn says it all.